Foiled Escape Plan

The psychology that was used on me was simple. In fact it just took two extortionist rapists to sabotage me. They equipped them with my past and rest was done by them. I had my psychological theories back then and I used to think that it was all repression due to emotional trauma that needed to be vented out and I tried to do it with the help of creativity. Unfortunately it was not trauma but sabotage. Their are truths, like which regional structures has control of my brain a decade ago. I was possessed, cognitively disabled but my reason which was a distillation of all my life experiences was intact. It was real-time. I used to think that I had discarded my life due to stubbornness, but I realised that I was chosen to self-destruct, not because of some fault, but because that's what they normally do to majority, throwing them in the pit of self-harm and self-destruction while at the same time continuously torturing them for depraved and sadistic pleasures. Future was a vast place for me back then, and I had the ability and skill to make me perception of the future real, despite the disability and torture inflicted on me. These individuals have access of lives and pasts of people and thus an information edge as their realities are never revealed to the people they sabotage and torture. They work by knowing new things about people and learning new knowledge in general and then act like they had known it since years and then torture their targets for the obvious knowledge gap between them and their target while keeping tabs on the learnings of their target and how, when and why the target learnt what he knows. Their approach is having an absolute belief in inferiority of their target, and it's here one realises that belief is everything even if it is delusion, it is a war of beliefs. Their delusions of superiority is invariably a defence mechanism or if not is based on very simple rules of judgement like having direct control and superiority over the target and having an edge over knowledge, resources and power over the target, though the issue is that they choose their targets out of hatred and the process of choosing the target is more akin to picking a fight with a random person walking on the road. Since they have superiority in the power dynamic it is not telling who will actually win, but they are not actually satisfied by having a superiority in just the power dynamic and also want to win the battle of narrative by making the target feel that he is wrong by presenting lies which look like truths and since they have access to the truths it makes the target more liable to take their false version of truths as truth. The main agenda over winning the war of narrative, and proving the target wrong is that if the target is a conscientious and good person, they can exploit the target for as long as they can by blackmailing him due to him being wrong when he was not wrong in the first place. In short, it's a bunch of criminals exploiting only and only good people, and they masquerade as the providence, in fact they actually are the providence and (hopefully not) the only God that there is. The currencies in this struggle are sex, power, money and resources. Why did I have to know that, when I just wanted to create, dish out helpful psychology, write poetry and stories in my leisure and treat people to health as my vocation, but then it hit home the fact that it's a setup of totalitarian exploitation with all religious knowledge and philosophy amounting just to propaganda. With all the knowledge and books that I read in the 90s it was just unbelievable that the actual face of everything is of a rape and exploitation machine but once one sees it functioning and gets to know (of course unintentionally and inadvertently) the kind of individuals employed in the structure there doesn't remain a shadow of doubt about it.