Interruption Bureau

It's unfortunate whatever it is but it is the way things are. I have no idea what relation the actual politics and government in power has with all this but it would be curious to know the relationship. When the paranoia subsides the blackmail doesn't really work, especially when one realises that the thoughts one is being blackmailed for are being externally inserted. I'm still connected to my villages and I like it because it is equivalent to having roots, and having roots is not a bad thing. It was tried to prove me as manipulative but then it started with directly trying to prove me psychopathic and things like incest so one comes to know that it's all bullshit. Intelligence is redundant here, because the setup is direct slavery. Every single aspect of my life is being micromanaged since a decade and possibly since twenty years and if not, at least sixteen to eighteen years. When the discrimination began a decade ago, things gradually fomented to demoting me in class and the approach used by these individuals was reverting me back to my village days which were mostly summer vacations and unfortunately for these Individuals those were the happiest days of my life, and problem is with the perception of these individuals and not my truth and my memories. My problem has been idealism, I set very high standards for myself and then beat myself up when I fail to achieve them. I expect a very strict conduct from myself and when I can't achieve it, I suffer, but that's a personal way of life, and it definitely doesn't mean that I'm weak or afraid. I have high moral standards and when I give in to my lower impulses, which especially in past sixteen to twenty years have been very strong and non-negotiable and yet I have been able to stand my ground, I suffer. I had to go a bit easy on myself when I realised that my conscience and moral standards were being seen as my weakness and were being exploited. I can't falsify the perceptions of the individuals oppressing me even if they are mostly based on delusions and hatred, because that's too one way of seeing things, it's one perspective among unlimited perspectives one can choose to see things in though they are false and delusional and based in hatred. The reasons things started in the first place are problematic. A person in public domain was chosen to be accessed and then hated for no actual reason except discriminatory hatred and then was chosen for continuous torture, while he was already being tortured by his region and possibly his supposed hometown. The hatred was so much that every happiness, every pleasure, every comfort and evey satisfaction was taken away from his life and deepest possible hurts were inflicted on him, as if he had made personal enemies, which he actual hadn't and never had any intention to. Though it later turns out that it's a totalitarian setup in which people are bred and culled  and in between tortured, raped and exploited by individuals above the glass ceiling. Turns out everything is a lie, every single thing, and it's a slavery with God, religion, traditions, morality, social conventions and ethics being used as decoys and excuses for blackmail, rape and torture. I was, very unintentionally, at a place where people supposedly from a different social class than me were present, and it wasn't even in my mind until it was repeatedly hit home to me, despite me never interacting or trying to gain any favours from them. The place, I had thought back then, as democratic turned out to be a place of discrimination and engineered humiliation, while for me it was just a place for exchange of knowledge and pleasantries and a good way to express one's creativity. Though everything become redundant when one realises that it's all slavery and reasons do not matter, they are conjured from thin air. Despite the unexplainable torture and sabotage of my life and career and engineered humiliation inflicted on me, I didn't break down, but the approaches that were applied on me made me aware of the pathos of the common people and the mindless and depraved manner they and their lives are dealt with. The invisible structure behind all this, turns out to be a structure that not only controls the minutest details of lives of people but also rapes, torture, exploits and murders them just for kicks and this structure does all of this with a sense of entitlement despite having no basis or written document signifying its control except for the actual direct control on people that reduces them to slaves.