Nostalgia Shot

How great it was, a bunch of friends playing Quake 3 Arena on LAN. A bunch of dudes going on long rides on their bikes, stopping at a tea stall to drink tea. Does that world still exist? Probably it does, but it has lost its meaning. Lord of The Rings on a 5.1 surround system, it had a meaning back then. Losing is not as bad as losing the meaning in the the things you once loved to do. All that remains now is nostalgia. A lot of it. You see the world through the filter of your perception. Age of Empires on a dial-up modem, Tribes 2 and its bgm on cheap 2.1 speakers which you thought you would replace with a great 5.1 surround sound system. When did you lose all the meaning in these things? You realise that it is because your priorities changed. Was it a fault in personality? Probably it was. But it is also called prioritising things. You prioritised things were more important, and that can't be wrong, never will be. The world changed too fast. And 5.1 surround sound systems became older, they were replaced by more advanced systems, just that the soul of music which one was supposed to listen on great speakers was lost. Though old music still exists and so does classical music, the music that would always have soul. How great was Yahoo Messenger. You spent days in the Harry Potter chatrooms, roleplaying as Harry Potter characters. Now they probably do that on Discord. You don't understand Discord. Probably you are old. The things you loved back then stood the test of time. Quake 3 Arena and Tribes 2 are still great games. You wonder if they would ever reboot Tribes. Quake still gets relased but it's not as fun as Quake 3 Arena. Probably it was the time back then. Probably it was the lack of options. Things were not bad back then, in fact they were great. You remember how you loved comic books and collecting them. You have no idea where did your collection go. You prioritised a goal over your interests and when you reached that goal you realise that you would have reached it even if you haven't sacrificed your interests. The comic books had worlds hidden in them. So do all the books. And so when you got the chance, you collected videogames and books. They have no meaning anymore but you wanted to do that for the old times sake. You have all the videogames and books you wanted now, but what is absent is the desire to play and read them. You understand the mathematics of the world now. Innocence is ignorance and ignorance is sin. Though when you lose the ignorance, you realise that you were better off being ignorant even if it made you susceptible to exploitation.