Homeless Homeful

You were about to have the taste of freedom. Home was a great place back then. Today, anywhere you are is home. You carry around your home now, in your head. You are comfortable. The taste of freedom you had left a bad taste in your mouth. Before freedom left a bad taste in your mouth, a very long before, you had a home, it's still there but you have a home in your head too. You have two homes now. You thought you can be an antihero? Nah! You were born to be a hero. Antihero is not your cup of tea. Antiheroes are grey, in fact they come in different shades of grey. You thought you can be an antihero, it's not actually possible. You have seen how demonic humans can be, and you are sure that you can't see worse than what you have already seen. You know that you can't be proven wrong in this regard. You have already seen the worst. The freedom was elusive, and this freedom came just before the actual freedom. This freedom was the realisation of slavery. The actual freedom arrived just sometime after that when you salvaged your soul from the ruins of your dreams and ideals. It all could happen because you had a home, a real home. How unfortunate those must be who didn't have a real home? The home in your head is growing in its size. It's getting bigger and better. The best part, it cannot be destroyed. Even if the real home is destroyed you'd have a home, you would have a home wherever you go. It's been a very funny drama going on since long. You have been seeing these theatricals since quite sometime now. It's funny, it's hilarious. You know the good news? Soul exists. Not sure about the ghost kind of soul, but soul in the sense of totality of your essence exists. The consciousness can be hijacked by the ones who own and sell things, but they can't hijack the soul. Sure, they can fool it once or twice, or if you are too kind a few more times, but that's about it. This soul of yours helps you reclaim a part of your hijacked consciousness even if reclaiming your full consciousness is not possible. It's been great, reclaiming the part of your salvageable consciousness. It's been great watching this land doing striptease on the pole of shameless abuse of power. You have seen culture being preserved in the most uncultured ways possible. You have seen unfathomable cruelty being inflicted on people in the name of destiny and fate. Probably being an antihero is possible. In ways only you would know. Home now is just real estate. And that's why you now carry your home in your head.