Possession Business

I wanted to explore the extremes of humanity, one of the reasons was that I didn't want to get surprised. Now, I'm glad that I did it. And the best part of it all is that I can't be surprised anymore. It's good to not to be surprised. The world revealed itself to me and I'm glad that it did. One of the things I believed in since the start was a higher purpose, and now I'm sure that there is no higher purpose to life except taking care of your family as good as you can. Sure, you can have other higher purposes of your life in your head, but they won't play out organically, as nothing is organic about life in present times. I have my higher purpose in my head, the higher purpose other than trying to take care of my family, and that is working every day at my skills, my job and my art, doing it to the best of my ability. And I have realised that these are the only two things that matter in the present world, taking care of family and being good at what you do. The system is purely economic and there is no other truth than this. Economics devours human connection and thus you have to be able to be comfortable with yourself. Being comfortable with oneself is tricky too, especially if you are not a narcissist. This is because of the arrangement of this country or of the world, whatever you call it. You individuality can be sabotaged and it can happen that you don't even find yourself within you, and it takes effort and luck to find yourself back, and when you find yourself you can begin working towards your goals. The goals that don't matter in the larger perspective but matter to you. The control is more than hundred percent, and it can be that none of the options you'd be given are either suitable to you or are those you want. It's a decision, and not yours, and it would be given the name of destiny. You can be sent on path of self-destruction or suffering, and it might totally be that you don't really deserve it, in fact majority of cases are of people who don't really deserve to suffer, suffering. The healing comes with realisation of the setup. The realisation that you shouldn't get affected by these political mind parasites and the realisation that the healing and bliss both are inside you and you and they can be achieved. I prioritised the end of drama and chose peace and bliss, and after several grotesque realisations I achieved my peace and bliss. Pain has been a friend and after some time I realised that all the pain that I suffered was inflicted and while the pain exists, I achieved peace and bliss at a deeper level where pain can't reach. You discover extremes of humanity, and you discover those who push people to extremes of humanity just for the sake of depraved fun and on a daily basis. These individuals can't find reality of people despite having access and control of their reality. It's good to not to be surprised anymore. It's good to see the intended chaos. There is nothing that can be done about the pain and suffering in the world, but you can achieve your peace and bliss and achievement of these depends on the difficulty level your life has been set on and a series of right decisions that you have to make.