Throne of God

There are stages of grief, and once you cross all the stages of it all that remains is understanding. I have realised that there is no need for grief. Grief is when the tragedy is natural, and the truth of the matter is that no tragedy in the world is natural. All tragedies are created. Once one understands this, things become quite simple. I was believer of catharsis, of venting out, till I realised that it is not necessary and not everyone in the world is privileged enough to get catharsis or to vent out. I had a belief once that there is rage inside me that needs to be vent out, as I matured I realised that there was no rage in me. It was just a sense of justice that is still present. The rage if at all any calms down when you realise that it's not criminal rage inside you but an actual criminal who has hijacked your consciousness.  Your consciousness is getting auctioned in the black market and is being bought by criminals. All the venting and catharsis you were doing were not your own issues, they were either unresolved issues of the criminal hijacking your consciousness or the unresolved issues were created by a bunch of criminals. Life becomes easy once you realise that there is no providence, just an animal farm where you are an animal waiting to be slaughtered. What is the ultimate anyway? That you have money, your loved ones are happy and that you go to heaven once you die. This is what the ultimate is and this what exactly is the bait. People are shown this bait and are made to do anything. What does a young guy want? I take my example. I wanted to satisfy the expectations of my family. I wanted a good career, a woman with whom I could talk about the universe and probably that's all. And yes I wanted to compensate for the suffering I had gone through. It's fine when your life is a product of fate, but in my case it was a bunch of assholes conspiring against me for no reason. There is no getting out of this. Though I realise that I'm in it with the majority. You try and give back to the society and then you realise that there is no society to give back to. That every man or woman is an island. When you get self-actualised before your basic needs are fulfilled shit gets difficult but then you realise that people are fighting in this world just to get their basic needs fulfilled sometimes mistaking their greed for needs. Was it so difficult, treating the sick and getting paid for it while having relationships to discuss things of interest and keeping the family happy? It could've been done without realising the tiers of existence. Without realising that people are intentionally deprived while they die of that deprivation. There is a structure, in fact the highest and deepest structure that works 24x7 to exploit, deprive and torture people and this structure derives pleasure from the pain and suffering it inflicts on them. It makes people feel guilty and then exploits them by exploiting that guilt. This structure blames the victim. And it can only happen when the structure has the same mentality as the individual who inflicted the pain and suffering on the person. You realise that the individuals who sit on the throne of God are criminals, at least in this country.