Idealism in a Circus

The books on writing that I have read unanimously tell one thing, a writer's job is to say what other people think but don't dare to say out loud. I keep my personal and professional life out of my writing, in the sense that I do not discuss my family, job and academics. While majority of writers I have read believe in bare it all, only personal things I discuss in my writing are my beliefs and preferences and I somehow believe that in today's times these are the only personal things a writer should discuss, and discussing beliefs and preferences gives people all they want and need to know about a writer and there is no need to go into details of family life and professional and academic life. I keep my professional and academic writing seperate, where I discuss my professional experiences, and I do it because, since my field is medicine and health, I feel that it could be useful to other people. I'm majorly a fiction writer who writes non-fiction on the side, especially now when after knowing the truth of the arrangement of the world he has realised that fiction is redundant in the world of today. I still love to write fiction despite its redundancy and futility in the present world. I write fiction, and I write non-fiction and I write for practice. I think in the modern world I'm one of the few people from the late 2000s era who are still writing non-monetised blogs. To be frank I do not care if someone reads my blogs, writings and fiction or not, I write solely for my pleasure and for practice with the intent of bettering my craft as writing is the only art I know and it is one of the few things which gives me creative pleasure. I still remember 2010s when I was in college and I wanted to comic book writing on the side along with my main job. Comic book writing in an ideal world is one of the best jobs you can do, you can entertain children, and also teach them a thing or two. But as the word unfolded in front of my eyes, I realised that the world is far from ideal and there is no possibility that it would ever become ideal no matter how much technological progress it makes. The design of the world since forever is of predator and prey, it's just that now the prey doesn't know it's being hunted. There is only one way, create your personal fantasy about the world and live in it. I can't live in delusions as all my delusions, positive of negative I had since my childhood got broken in due course of time, so I created my own comfort zone, a fantastical place in my head and live in it. A majority of people do the same, intentionally or unintentionally. I live in fantasy but I'm not delusional, and my fantasy is intentional meant to keep away from the actual ugliness of the world which I unintentionally tapped into and got to see. There is a lot of beauty in the world too, but the ugliness of the politics trumps all. Power is the only true social currency, just like money is the only currency of survival. A man over 30 should know that there is no God except inside him. The God outside him is actually politics. That's the very basic knowledge a man above 30 should have. The existence for good people is suffering unprovoked violence sexual and otherwise. Those who think that it's not the case just do not know enough about the world. The main struggle for a good man is surviving socially and financially in a world like this without becoming rabid and a hypocrite which is actually a daily challenge. Personally, I have always needed rules or codes to follow, and I follow my codes. Life is fun when you live by principles, even though it keeps getting exceedingly tougher the way this country is evolving but that's the whole fun of it. Living by principles instead of living on instincts and impulses is what differentiates us from animals, and I like to keep that difference intact.