Chekhov, Kafka and Lovecraft

I started developing interest in writing when I was in high school and I started writing just after high school. My initial interest was in writing fiction and by early 2010s I had the concept of my first novel clear in my head. I had written a bunch of short stories and while I was still in college I got interested in comic book writing, which would have been my secondary career of choice if the country hadn't changed so drastically after 2010s. Now, as the situation is, even actual comic book writers, and not wannabes like me, have no work and have resorted to turning into political propagandists and podcasters. I miss real stories, real stories with a soul. Ever since I started studying medicine I have wanted to be physician-writer and majority of my young life I had idolized Chekhov. And so I write, fiction less now, because it has become meaningless in the current political climate of this country and the world, but I still do write fiction. When I had choice of choosing an art, I chose to be a writer and my ultimate aim was to be a novelist, a good one. The goal of becoming a novelist is not there anymore but I hopefully would complete the novels in my head, if only on my blogs and Wattpad. The decision to be a standalone writer turned out to be a good one, because in the past decade I have seen film companies which produced good films getting shut down, comic book companies getting shut down, and rock bands getting broken. Some of them were my favourite and now when I'm aware of the level politics and political control operates in this country and the world, all of this doesn't really seem surprising to me. Though for a person like me, things that are dear to me, like literature, rock music and comic books stop to matter after realisation of the actual political setup of this country and the world. Though interests are interests and I really enjoy them even if they don't matter as much as before. If you want a contrast between what's happening these days in this country and what it could have been, read the story The Postmaster by Rabindranath Tagore. I realised the actual politics of this country, and not the fake bullshit that goes on in the newspapers, TV and the internet, and I realise that I was doomed since the start, since as early as 2006, or even 2004. It is my love for literature and medicine that kept me away from sex and drugs, which is the method of choice of the political setup of this country to ruin kids of good families. In the reality of events that are unfolding in this country and the world in real-time, comic book and novel worlds do not matter but I miss how books and comic books used to transport me into other worlds during my childhood. The individuals in charge of running this country are either incompetent or entitled sadists, and from my experiences in the past decade it seems that they are both, unless there is some grand plan that is inconceivable to the normal human mind, probability of which, after experiencing what I have experienced in the past decade, seems very low to me at least and anyone who has visited Anand Vihar station in Delhi can make sense of this statement. "Dogs and Indians not allowed" never went out of practice, it's just that it is now being done to Indians and by Indians, unfortunately the worst part about it is that now they don't even put boards which the British were kind enough to do, so the common man doesn't even come to know when and where he is overstepping. I plan to keep writing though, as it's the only art I know and hopefully I would get the novels out of my head and on paper, though I discarded the plan of getting them published a very long ago. AI anyway can write better than me now so it doesn't matter. I just write for documenting my reality and and for creative satisfaction.