Eyes Wide Shut Attempted Remake

Being acquainted to reality is great thing. I'm an imaginative person who has not had access to his imagination for more than a decade now, still I try to be as imaginative as possible. I wanted to seek truth, and I prepared myself for it in 2012, and I guess the universe has its ways of giving you what you want. I wanted to be a writer, and although after knowing the truth of writing and writers in this country I would never want to become a published writer I have things and experiences to share and that I would on my blogs. The question is "who would bell the cat?" Someone has to. And although I was totally unwilling to do that, because I have other and better things to do, politically and in my situation it means both physically and mentally it has become impossible for me to not to bell the cat. It's a case of regional inferiority and needless hatred and owing to it a plan to needlessly put a permanent blot on my legacy, but sadly I have realised that there is neither a pedigree, nor a legacy in this country, I do not know about other countries. I know what I am and I know that I definitely am not a rebel without a cause, in fact I'm not a rebel at all, I'm just a healer who just wanted to be in his corner and do his work, but guess that's too much to ask for in a region and country where active but covert, rape, genocide and exploitation is going on. It is a godless country, and it's just running on deluding people. Of course there was no need for any of what is going on at present at all, but then in the past decade I got acquainted with the kind of individuals that have power over people's lives and unfortunately minds and bodies. The worst part of it all are not only they are depraved and criminal but also incompetent and not very intelligent and this is applicable from top to bottom. Unfortunately the arrangement is such that permanence of power has been established and people below that threshold are just beasts of burden and animals of slaughter. It is in fact the situation you would imagine in the absence of God and from what I have seen in the past decade, existence of God is impossible except within you and in your faith. I had heard of absolute power corrupts absolutely but then I got to witness it and when it's the case of individuals who have access to all the knowledge in the world, one readily realises that world as we know or even the Earth has ended and it's nothing but a penal colony that we are living in until we die and while we are alive we see the ones we love suffering. I mean someone's got to speak up when they see these individuals raping, torturing and killing people just based on their whims. Even the reasons for raping someone, destroying their lives, families and murdering them are not concrete. It could be as simple as these individuals not liking how someone looks, and their whole families and coming generations would be tortured for that. There is no accountability at all. Of course it is all being done in the name of God and morality but the truth, at least in case of Purvanchal I know, that it is sex and money while depriving others of the same, or if they want to get these two things they have to compromise with their morals and values just so these motherfuckers can have dirt on them and can pull the rug on them whenever they want. It's baffling that despite such a vast and varied philosophies in this country these motherfuckers decided to keep things as simple as they actually are. At this point it's just these motherfuckers raping and murdering people based on their whims, which can be anything from them not liking their looks, to their caste, or for that matter anything, it's just a bunch of spoilt and entitled assholes employing conspiratorial criminals for crowd control who conspire against people for absolutely no reason. I realised that if God doesn't exist in a country like India, it doesn't actually have the possibility of existing at all. It's basically pavlovian control with fear and blackmail, I mean it's the absolute method of control because who doesn't want to exist and who actually wants to die? It's a game of pulling ideas out of ass to needlessly make other people suffer, which is unfortunate and it also tells a lot about the competence of assholes who are in control in this nation, which I'm kind of sure by now is not the government and I would be surprised if it is.