Inferno

Things tend to get interesting. I'm at that stage in my life where I do not find Kafka and Dostoevsky cool. I did once upon a time. This nation however doesn't allow for stylized suffering like Kafka and Dostoevsky, and it's funny because it is here one realises that the manner one suffers is also stratified. The bottomline is this, you got to suffer tremendously and you got to fold your hands in front of those who torture you. While this might be applicable to some, let's not forget that these are the individuals who rape women in your family in front of you to assert dominance. I have been held responsible for everything in my life, whether I have done it or not, so by that logic the top brass is responsible for everything that is happening including the kind of individuals they have employed. Going by my experiences of past decade it might be that these motherfuckers are the same as the kind of individuals that they have employed. Isn't it great, this shit. In my case, however, none of what happened was required. A major part of my suffering was due to me assuming that since these individuals have access to more information than me maybe they are right and I'm wrong, which turned out to be not the case later. Lives of people, are not dependent on some grand plan, but on simple ideas that originate in the minds of these individuals, very simple ideas and they have the technology and resources to make what they think, true. It's kind of like The Secret. In my case I suppose I might have offended some wrong egos, unintentionally of course, to suffer what I'm suffering, but there has been a background to it even before those egos were offended. I know how it works now though and once you understand that there are no surprises. It's kind of simple actually, in fact way too simple to believe. The suffering goes back quite a bit, and during that time some decisions were made, intentionally, unintentionally, I don't care anymore. After that, and quite some time after that, the offence to ego period came, which of course was all taken and none given. What i came to know after that was unfortunate. There are concrete truths behind it all, and it is these concrete truths that I'm after. The level of incompetence, idiocy, entitlement and criminality behind it all has been nothing but baffling but then it allowed me to get the true picture of what was supposed to be my region and this country.