NIMHANS

It was 2013 and I was still studying in graduation. I wanted to be a psychiatrist. I didn't do it because I changed my stream to physiology which was one of the other subjects that I loved, but of course studying psychiatry after I completed my study of physiology was always in the options and so I continued to study it. The reason? I wanted to help people with mental health issues, and finally I end up realising that mental health and psychiatry itself is a scam and it's all just basically political oppression, though pain and suffering of mental health issues aka political oppression is quite real and can get pretty worse and unbearable and the worst thing of all is that it is very subjective. The fun part is that the reality is such that you'd look crazy of you talk about it, and it's by design, if you are logical, you'd realise why. I have realised that there is no particular reason for which the sufferers are chosen, you can guess, what sin might have been committed by an uneducated village lady who gets possessed by "Devi"? There is no "Devi" possesion outside this country, though ghost possessions are common. Your mental health in this country is dependent on not how you are as a person, how you conduct your life, how moral you are, not on any of these things, but it depends on what caste you are, how do you look and other whimsical shit that the assholes who control the minds of people in this country can imagine. Let me remind you, this is 2025, the year we thought we would have flying cars and bases on other planets. To make the matter simpler for you to understand, your mental health depends on whims of criminals and rapists employed by rich of this country, and so do your future and educational and career prospects, and the problem with the rich and powerful is that even if it's their fault, you are going to pay, these motherfuckers do not have a sense of humour and that shows their pedigree. To be frank I had no business in any of this. I just wanted to chill with some friends, drink some beers with them and discuss pop culture and philosophy, but the situation is such that after college, each cigarette I smoke feels like sin, which of course I realise is the approach of the location where my base is located, that is Purvanchal, but I know enough about Puravnchal now to deduce things, it's the same region where an arts professor from BHU is made cray, because she probably dared to study surrealism, these motherfuckers believe in absolute totalitarianism to the point that they micromanage personal lives of people. I have realised that these individuals do not have class and are rapists and criminals, and it's unfortunate that lives, minds and bodies of men and women way better than them is in their access and control. These individuals couldn't even judge whether I believe in God or not, and that too after having full access to my mind. The fun part, I quietly accepted whatever shit that was thrown my way for the respect of authority, for the love of my region, but frankly it never stops, these are criminals and it's not really hell, they would torture you to infinity while you would think that it is a mental health issue, it is a pattern of Purvanchal and Bihar to make people from the region get exploited and humiliated by individuals from other regions, and frankly I don't know the reason for it but it is what normally happens. The best part is that the control that you are in, though not completely, but enough to make sense of what has actually happened, can be overridden, and this finally revealed to me that it is infact politics and technology, and it is specifically technology of slavery and exploitation, trust me I know it. You can't trust what you feel and so I would suggest you intentionally live by a code of conduct. Isn't it funny, that we live in a world where we can't even trust what we feel? A practical suggestion, try to double check your thoughts by intentionally imagining what you'd do in any particular situation, and it would give you your authentic answer. It's a technological bug, which I'm sure would be fixed in some years.