Trauma Response

Emotional trauma used to mean something once. I have seen emotional trauma personally and a very complex one at that. What would you call more than twenty years or two decades of continuous emotional trauma? That's a tough thing. But I survived and adapted well and that too in a very decent and harmless way. It is this reason a decade back I wanted to be a psychiatrist, to help people. I didn't get the postgraduate degree as I changed my stream to hospital administration but since psychiatry was my second love after medicine and general practice, I learnt everything that one could possibly learn about psychology and psychiatry and that learning combined with my experiences disrobed the sociopolitical setup and the reality of this country in front of me. The oppression is unending, and it never stops until you are dead, either this or you turn into a hypocritical beast or a demon, those who choose not to, would have a hard life ahead of them. The thing about trauma is that it always starts with anxiety and existential threat or at least dread, and since man is social animal the threat or  dread in majority of cases is sociological in nature. The problem of this country is, if you are an understanding person, you are more like Jesus on the cross, you have to suffer the delusions of the powerful, who I have realised and the hard way, are not really intelligent, and you also have to bear the responsibility of hypocritical and selfish village idiots of this country. Trauma starts with a threat or an idea. The threat is real and the idea, even if it is not real, is an idea of threat and as real, or at least it seems as real as the threat. I mean you get acquainted with the sociopolitical setup and understand that the whole game is about exploitating conscience, morality and goodness of good people, and when they become aware and do not comply, it turns into blackmail and intimidation. Emotional trauma has lost its value because now everyone, at least the ones who have not turned hypocritical and selfish beasts and demons, are in a state of consistent real-time emotional trauma. Peace is not an option anymore. The hullabaloo about PTSD has died down. People can recover, but there is a setup to ensure that they never do, and it is here psychiatry becomes a scam and just a way of profiting the pharma companies. Real psychiatry doesn't need medicines but unfortunately you can't practice real psychiatry in this country, or as I see on X, anywhere.