Write Concepts #6

It's been more than fifteen years since I'm writing and to be honest I have lost the plot. AI can write better than me, and in a post truth world writing doesn't really matter. I was into writing fiction even though I still do it, I find no value in writing fiction in a world like we have today and only thing it does is that it gets the stories I have in my head, out. I have been thinking lately, to use my writing to do things that I really want to do and one of them is preserving the cultures, vibes and linguistics I love. To be truthful, it is unimaginably hard amidst the current political oppression and given the reality of situation in this country it achieves nothing except giving me the satisfaction of trying to do my bit but I guess that much is enough for me. Hindi linguistic aesthetics have been decimated and if you know Hindi and want to know what I'm talking about, listen to the song "Sooraj Mukhi" by Bhupinder Singh. I want to work for Hindi linguistic aesthetics but oppression has taken away my ability plus survival is too much of a concern to gather time to devote to this pursuit, but then I can handle it as one of my side hustles. I grew up only to realise that everything is politics including private existence and religion, and I was not ready for it, but I'm just glad that I was enlightened enough to realise it, the majority is still sleeping and unintentionally playing or, to put it more clearly, are being made to play ego based games, which I frankly was never interested in playing. I have been doing small writing projects on Tumblr and I have a bit bigger projects to in the form of ideas for novels, which at present have increased to four novels, and there is one Sherlock Holmes style series dealing with psychiatric investigations and sometimes what is seen as occult with two psychiatrists as protagonists. The issue is that I know that I have the ability to handle it but I also know that the oppression would not allow me to express that ability, still I would try to complete what I started, and put it on my blogs and probably my Wattpad too even if it turns out to be substandard because at present it is just about getting the ideas out of my head and on paper, and I have, now since a considerable length of time, realised that all of this is futile, though what I write has the potential of saving lives and if not that at least it prevents people from dying deluded about the world; it's basically about telling the good people that it's not their fault, it never was. It's truth and love against power, money and sex which due to absolute, irreversible and unchecked power dynamic has taken the form of totalitarianism, exploitation and rape. I started seeking truth in around twelve years ago and it was around same time I started to expose myself to hardships and extremes and ugliness of society, the motive behind doing all this was that I thought that it would be ultimately good for my writing, and here I am jacking off with my less than average writing skills while AI writes better than me. Though I learnt important lessons doing what I did to myself, and one of them was the realisation that exposing yourself to hardships is the stupidest thing you can do as life, by design, and not by the design of God but politics, is hard and it gets progressively hard as time passes for everyone except the ones chosen by the politics, which would be the majority of people while the politics hangs the carrot of hope of a better future in front of them balancing it with threat of pain, perishing and social humiliation while the ones chosen and the ones who chose them, freely torture, exploit and rape them. I don't write to ease myself or vent myself, I'm way past that stage, I write, well, because I write and I'll probably keep writing because even though it doesn't matter in front of the real picture and actual truth, it has potential to do some good and if I can do it why not? If you want actual clarity about life, know that only two things that actually matter are truth and love, and if you don't want it, you already know that it's power, money and sex, it's not as simple but I would excuse myself of trouble of explaining this shit.