Suspiria

The real skill lies in being able to describe the indescribable. I have been working on it, and I believe that I’ll get there ultimately, if I’m alive. I have seen unspeakable horrors, and while it might seem that I’m bragging but I’m not. A lot of suffering and work that goes into being able to describe the indescribable, and I have put in both and I’m ready to put in more. It’s hard to describe the indescribable but the crux of the situation is that the indescribable is indescribable only till it is described and what I’m calling indescribable in the present context is related to feelings, sensations and complex emotions. The setup in this country is basically sociopolitical, which is a given for any society, region or a country, but the catch here is that this sociopolitical setup is so deep that it invades and overpowers your individuality and personal agency, and you become nothing but an automaton being run on artificial impulses. I have met people who define life based on our relationships with other people which in my opinion might not be completely true but is largely true as we live in a society and man is a social animal. What I have experienced is the exploitation through morality and social conventions, but the catch here is that it was done by individuals who have no relations to morality, ethics or social conventions whatsoever and it is here I realised that the underbelly of the society is not something that is formed organically but it is an ecosystem that is intentionally created, curated and maintained and doing that involves inflicting unfathomable amounts of suffering on human souls and bodies. Living in this country is basically always being afraid for survival, of death, ruin and social humiliation and getting exploited for things that a person has no control over, including involuntary responses of his mind and body. Those who do not undergo this either have the hand of the entity that actually runs this nation and probably the world over their heads or are a part of it. I consider myself lucky to have realised that this entity is not of some divine (which is a far cry and the actual word would be demonic) or supernatural origin but is political in nature. I’m a man who just wanted to do his work, spend time with family and friends, pursue his hobbies and chill in a quiet corner without disturbing or causing pain to anyone, but since my life was invaded for no reason at all and I realised that people in this country are deprived from the very basics that are required to keep them human that too by subhuman criminals and rapists who don’t even deserve to be miles near the people whose minds and bodies they have access to, I think it would be better that I actually try and work on making the indescribable, describable. I have realised that it is not the God, and at this point I don’t know whether it is the government or not, but I know that this entity, if it is not the government, is more powerful than the government. Needless exploitation, conspiracies, hatred, rape and sadism are not cool especially when innocents, who just want to mind their own business and be in their corner are involved. The least an aware man can do is make sense of this absolutely criminal madness and document it so that others can be aware.