Cozy Places

Life was good when you thought that you could have had a cabin in the woods or a cottage in the hills away from the hullabaloo of the city life. The realisation one is surveilled at all times and by the worst scum humanity has possibly produced, grounds you. The correct method of climbing the social ladder is to close and lock the door after you, it may not be morally correct but it is the standard method. In this country the best way to eat a pizza is to make sure others can't eat it. When I was a kid, I used to think that how can people deprive girls of nutritious food, like eggs. It was unbelievable to me, but after growing up I realised that the system, and I'm not talking about the government, but the system that really governs our lives, systematically promotes these things. Girls are deprived of nutritious food, of course in lower classes, just because they are girls. You look at Purvanchal and there is just religion and community outside, and it is because the people, the common people are good. My culture, the actual culture, is beautiful, but then I have had the not-so-privilege of looking into the abyss of neuropsychological reality of the region and through it the minds of those who control the setup and it's nothing but sex, rape, exploitation and deprivation. I mean when you are raping someone the least you could do is give them is nutritious food, but then this is where deprivation comes in picture. It's demonic but also terribly pathetic because shit is stratified, English speaking elites at top, Urdu speaking Islamists second, Sanskrit speaking Brahmins and godmen third and fourth and the last is the colloquial people, though this is just one of the multiple ways society is stratified as they have really taken a multipronged approach. Hitler is considered to be the most evil person in modern history, though what I have learnt in the past decade I have started to have my doubts, he might be evil but people as evil or even more evil than him exist but since he is embodiment of evil in modern society I will use him as an example. In the lowest stratas you can get away with Hitler level of torture and murder of people and nobody will bat an eye because it is being done in the lowest strata. It matters to me, especially now because I like to quantify pain, and also because I have realised that in this country it is totally needless and is done for sadistic pleasure and power trips. Keeping people in their strata is not difficult, you can intimidate them which is obviously being done, but you can also provide them with fulfillment, like a potter finding fulfillment in making pottery. If he is fulfilled making pottery and earning enough to live by why would he even bother thinking of social mobility which is the chief concern of those in power. But the goal is not this, the goal is deriving pleasure from needless subjugation and torture and rape of people. What kind of individual would take pleasure in raping women of a person's family in front of them and what kind of pleasure? The answer is, an absolute asshole and the pleasure would be of humiliating that person and feeling the power trip. These kind of individuals have access to people's bodies and minds in Purvanchal and Bihar, literally, and it might be true for the rest of the country too. Government is nowhere in the picture here. Just in 2015, I used to search cozy pictures on Tumblr, like cozy bedrooms with glass windows with rain outside. That doesn't really exist actually and if it does it does either if you are ignorant and delusional or if you are not then by depriving others of it and I'm not into being both. As far as I go I don't really need to eat a pizza if I have to simultaneously deprive others from eating it.