Ganarajya

Mix totalitarianiam with religion and it's a heady cocktail. I matured and I realised that the places that act most religious aren't religious at all actually. It's all just a performative drama and those who do that drama know it themsleves. I have been seeking spirituality since more than a decade now, and I have realised some greater truths about life, religion and politics. You must always know and realise that faith of majority of people in this country was real twenty years ago, and is still real for quite a bit of people, though in the current scenario of this country either people do not belive, which ideally given the situation of this country they shouldn't, or faith is forced upon them by the method of threat of consequences or blackmail, like you did that and so it happened to you or you did that so it should happen to you. Being from Purvanchal is a gift that literally keeps on giving and I suppose the case is the same with Bihar, and as I matured I realised that those who control religion in Purvanchal are literally criminal rapists, which is okay and understandable looking at the history of the world but the kicker here is that these motherfuckers do not even believe in giving breathing space to people. What is the actual game behind this? Money, resources, land and retaining the right to rape people and deciding their destinies. The fun part of my experience has been the realisation that the fates and destinies of people are not decided by some grand plan or some religious scripture based reason, these motherfuckers are actually raping any one they want and murdering anyone they want and destroying any family they want, of course covertly, how? I guess you would get that idea in the next decade. As far as I go I have seeked all the spirituality I needed, and I have realised that the entity that decides my fate in this country is not divine in the least, but is political and is directly connected to economics and corporations and majority of godmen in this country are frauds and stooges kept for crowd control. It's unfortunate to see the state of religion in a deeply spiritual country like India and also seeing it getting politically weaponised. India is the only Hindu majority country in the world except Nepal and the controllers of religion in this country sold the religion, and one here one realises the true nature of the ones who actually control this nation. When I was in college I used to call myself a religious atheist, my ideas were not yet fully developed but that was me accepting atheism without renouncing the culture, my ideas have evolved since then, and although I was completely proven right about absence of God and I realised that what seems like God is just the neuropolitical control over people which given my experiences I know that has been optimised for rape and exploitation, I have also realised that even though God, at least the way religions tell it doesn't exist outside a person, it exists within a person and in his faith. I don't know about external God and that would be a whole different level of philosophical discussion about who created the universe, nature and animals, but now I know for sure that religion is mostly a political tool for control, exploitation and, unfortunately, rape. I hope that external God exists, though I'm sure that internal one exists, given if you can find Him or Her. My method of belief is believing in a Paramatma, and the deities Chamunda and Saraswati through whom I connect to other deities and following traditions and scriptures worth following. You must choose your deities if you are a Hindu because ultimately the thing will turn into civilizational conflict, and noone is coming to save your faith as the ones who control your religion are sold out. They have already degraded the culture and it's going to get worse. I retain my politcal atheism vehemently and now at a level higher then it was. It's a totalitarian setting and finding your true self and true faith depends on you and only you.