Love and Thunder

I like to focus on exchanges of love in different cultures, on all kinds of exchanges of love. You remember how your maternal grandmother loved you, or even paternal grandmother. It feels even more selfless than mother's love and you somehow feel more entitled and yet more dismissive of it than the love of your mother. There are relationships, and the dynamics in different cultures have similarities and yet have different nuances that may be due to individual diffrences, cultural differences and even vibes. The saddest thing is that not everyone is lucky to have a happy childhood. Kids get mistreated, physically abused and molested, and as far as molestation goes girls even more so. This shit becomes even more demonic after I realised that it is centrally controlled and even if it is not done intentionally, it can surely be prevented, and I used to think, like other people, that all of it is part of a grand plan for some greater good, though the political enlightenment in the past decade made me realise that it is not so, it's just a bunch of rich individuals employing criminals for crowd control and they are raping, exploiting, torturing and murdering anyone they want. You just can't tell who is it. Who knew life could be this simple. I would like to think that I got into the soup due to my in-depth knowledge of human condition and psychology, throw in it local hatred from my hometown and region, and it only made me realise that just like how previously lower castes were prevented from learning shastras and going to temples, people are now prevented from learning things and especially things like technology and at a neurological level. I'm talking about common people and not about entitled chosen individuals. Love, the kind of love people felt as latest as the 90s, is fast disappearing. Though love as an entity can't really disappear it will be there in some or other form, though it's potency can be diluted by awareness and intellect. I believe in truth and love, and I believe if there is a God, he too believes in the same. And I would like to believe that if there is a God, he is at least as intelligent as me. There are concepts, like eternity in hell and being born as an animal in the next incarnation or life. Though that kind of gets diluted when you get eternity in hell for jacking off on internet pornography while those who actually rape and exploit people and do human trafficking and those who coerce women into making pornography, live in heaven on Earth and funnily enough you can suffer physical and sociological hell on earth but suffering psychological hell on earth totally depends on you having a conscience, making it clear that only good people suffer. I'm actually not afraid of hell. I have my concept of God, and I have evidence, though subjective, that the God I grew up reading about and believing in doesn't really exist, though I have realised that I can manifest Her through faith and belief. I have trained myself enough and now I'm living, well as much as I can with the constant physical and psychological pain, as cozily as I can, and I still train myself as I believe learning and training yourself should never really stop. Love is my focus and it would be focus of my writing. Love and truth.