Rabbits and Snakes

Making sense of things is not easy. Just some time ago I was afraid that someone would read what I had written, about my insecurities about other things. It turns out things are way simple than what I had imagined them to be, and they are going to get even simpler. I have a particular shame associated with a particular attribute of mine which has defined whole of my life and when you realise that a particular attribute can decide your whole life or even death, your life means shit to people who run this country. You have a weakness or inferiority complex, that would be exploited as long as you are alive, and by none other than individuals who own this country and most of your being which is kind of funny. It took me time to realise that it is in fact the worst-case scenario and it happens to people around me and it so it happened to me and I realised that no one, even innocents, and especially innocents, is safe. It’s a massive ego machine which is drunk on power and is criminal and exploitative because the power dynamic advantage has been permanently established. In a scenario like this, any intelligent arrangement would have had a spiritual approach, but these motherfuckers opted for rape, deprivation, exploitation and genocide which betrayed the lack of intelligence and criminal nature of these motherfuckers. Why me? Probably I offended some egos somewhere, though I don’t exactly remember doing so, not on a personal level no. I didn’t really have enmity with anyone but the way things have been since 2013 with me, it seems like I have. I realise in retrospect that I was already marked for ruin and as early as 2004, and it’s funny that I really couldn’t know it before late 2010s and early 2020s. I finally got to know the arrangement and realised that I was being used as a bodysuit, as a slave and a sex slave in a way that none of the thoughts and actions are actually mine but all of the consequences are. It is a setup made wholly of lies, and it is kept alive by whataboutery, false accusations and victim blaming. I have realised that what these individuals do is not hard at all, all it requires is absolute absence of a moral compass and thinking of other people’s lives as a game. In my case it has been about magnifying my faults and minimizing good things, I mean I kind of understand all this as part of politics and tradecraft but here it is at the level of consciousness, where I earlier thought only and only God had the right to reside. Thankfully nature rejects this evil empire as soon as it becomes aware of it proving that this arrangement is not really a part of a higher intelligence, but a subset of idea of domination and superiority of intelligences created by it, and one can compare it to diseases. It’s not natural but it has an essence like all things, because even disease has an essence, but a terrible essence and I realise that evil not only exists, but it thrives, and it is what that actually rules over people. The problem is that evil arises from fear and the desire to dominate others and cause pain to them. The real nature of the world is evil, and it uses goodness and piousness as blueprints to be used to exploit people. Thinking of lives and relationships of people as mathematics is not hard, it can be done by almost anyone, but exploiting them as such without thinking of consequences that it would have on their lives is evil, but it is still less evil than relishing the pain of people while depriving, torturing and raping them, something that, I now realise, Purvanchal specialises in. It was tried to humiliate me for wanting to go to pubs, pizza places and such, and I have no idea why, there of course is a background to all of this, but I realise that if eating a pizza means depriving someone of it, when it is merely a food item, and especially when they are buying it with their own money, it is not really for me, it never was. This country is illiterate at a level I couldn’t have imagined in my wildest dreams and it is baffling that it has neurotechnology to enforce such things, if it is neurotechnology that is, if it is an organic hive mind that functions on inherent superiority then it’s a whole different matter and I would take back everything that I said about this arrangement ever.