Strongest Soldier

I feel I have arrived as far as finding my voice goes. My life has been a tremendous sequence of events, very subjective, but a tremendous sequence of events nevertheless, and my personal lore is terrific. What I have gone through in the past more than a decade is unbelievable but it has allowed me to uncover greater truths about me and the world. I have realised that in this world you have two options to choose from money and sex, which is the actual truth of the world, and the greater truth, that is truth and love. I have finally realised the world is not going to get better, in fact it would only get worse, if not objectively definitely at the subjective level for, if not all, most people. I have realised that humanity is irredeemable and is basically a bunch of dogs pissing at poles. We live in times when everyone in this country has been trapped in a customised prison, and it's not of divine origin but of political origin. It's impossible to break free from this prison, all that can be done is inculcating a bit of awareness of the actual reality of the slavery. Heaven and hell are here on earth and hell on earth is mostly suffered by the innocents, and this arrangement since it is inflicted by other humans ends the possibility of heaven and hell in the afterlife. God only exists within you and your faith though the political entity that has absolute control over your being can moonlight as God giving the illusion that it is God and why not, it is God for individuals to whom it gives incentives and even for those who it tortures for absolutely no reason at all. It's an orgy of rape, exploitation and recreational sadism and the emotion that prominently defines it is schadenfreude. One thing you must know and always remember is that feeling schadenfreude is not trait of an evolved being, and also that feelings of vindication and retribution are normal. The amount of suffering that can be inflicted on a human soul can't really be put into words, there is just one word for it, demonic. I have been to hell, and I didn't really deserve it, and if you go to hell with perpetual suffering for trifles, and it later turns out to be worldly and political in nature, shit just turns into dark humour. There are layers to existence on this planet, and I have realised that permanent internal peace can be achieved, no matter how much your mind, body and soul are tortured. You have to realise that in this country a common person has the same status as an animal who is just tortured for pleasure, and very unfortunately by individuals who don't even deserve to torture them, in fact they don't even deserve to be in the vicinity of them much less having the access and control of their person and ideas, but then this is the arrangement. It's straightforward, go for the easy prey first and that, in this setting, means the good, obedient, respectful and God fearing people, and this is the basis of the saying "God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers." There is no battle, just rape and sadistic torture.