Eat, Pray, Love, Survive

It was a task, finding my authentic voice and although I could write in different voices what I wanted to do was find my authentic voice and it felt great when I finally was able to do it. Once you find your voice, however hard it might be, you don't really lose it. It's like riding a bicycle. I love this country, I like the idea of India and I love how great the constitution is but then I have had the absolute, what I see as a privilege but might not be because of the suffering that is involved, opportunity to see what this country is behind the facade and it's not good. There are truths that can make a person insane and the saddest part is that no one is safe from this reality that pervades our life. What's saving the people, as long as they can be safe, are delusions. I was studying Medical Physiology and I had the plan to get a post-graduation in Psychiatry, and then a PhD in Medical Physiology. My personal goal was to access and research the domain of psychosomatology, while it couldn't happen due to my life's circumstances I did get enlightened enough about the domain I wanted to dedicate my life to. The truth is simple, psychosomatology is where all the pharma moolah is at and the individuals who are profiting don't really want anyone to access this domain. I anyway realised that physiology is anyway has become, behind the backs of common people, so advanced that any research I could have done would have been redundant and is being used for political purposes. I casually switched to being a general physician and furthering my knowledge in hospital administration, deciding to pursue PhD in Hospital Administration instead of Medical Physiology. The truth is not deep, the real truth of this country is in fact so cheap that people would be baffled. I keep writing though because it is the only authentic source of recreation I got and I try to make my writing useful. The totalitarian setting we live in, only help writing can do is bring awareness and if I'm able to do that, nothing better than that. Always remember, education is everything. It guards you against exploitation and behind all the facade of a stable government, this country is actually run by an exploitative machine. I used to be enamored by characters of grey shades in stories and media but I finally realised that truth of the world is actually black and white, grey isn't simply there. The assholes get empowered by evil and turn into predators, it's a kind of adaptation and good people when they find evil within them become sick and then the assholes profit off the sickness of these good people. Who would have thought that the truth of the world would be this simple, not me at least. There is no respite, but there is escape and one should wholeheartedly commit to escapism while being aware of the actual reality. I'm glad that I have my voice, it's just like how people in early 2000s used to talk about finding themsleves. Finding ourselves is hard because of the politics that pervades our lives. While I don't claim to have found myself, I do have a voice that resonates with me and my basic beliefs and I use that to do what I enjoy doing, writing.