The Uneding Game

Being an outsider gives a 360 degree view of things. I would have never realised that I was an outsider to my own region, but turns out I was and for such a trivial reason that could have been negotiated with. I realised that I was at the margin of my region made an outcast for a reason that was neither moral nor ethical in nature which would have been acceptable to me. And what I saw next made me realise that while people have grand imaginations of their fates and future it is in fact based on the whims of bottom feeding criminals who unfortunately aren't even competent. What I saw from the margins made me realise that I am good at the margins as personally I wouldn't have wanted to be a part of such a setup. I have seen the reality and that made me realise that all the religion and spirituality even though helpful for common people, is actually hogwash. Though faith is important and it is in my worst times I relied on my faith and so should you. When you come to know that bottom feeding criminals are writing your Kundali there isn't much left to know, and you quietly accept your fate deciding to exist solely for the people you love. Love is great when you are privileged but when you are not, it's torture. Though I would prefer to be tortured for love anyday than be devoid of it. My beautiful culture got destroyed and now nothing can save it because of the very nature of the setup of control. Everything in my lovely culture has ended up becoming a performance, even love and it is so because authentic expression of love, kindness, community, honesty gets exploited as soon as it surfaces, so people are making do with performative aspects of them. The culture I loved so much died somewhere in the 90s and I finally got to attend it's funeral when I was tortured for no reason. It was funny to me to realise that the basics, that too in a place like Purvanchal, would be sex and money though it aligns with the pattern in the greater nation. I finally realised that Whites and the west are intelligent because they don't allow anyone else to be intelligent and the travesty of the whites of this country who, I finally realised that, are the village rapists and extortionists who managed to accumulate wealth and power after the British visibly left this nation, is that they aren't even intelligent despite not allowing anyone else to be intelligent. I mean there is a possibility it's a hierarchy and actual whites don't allow the so-called whites of this nation to be intelligent but then that's just an assumption. It may be that these motherfuckers are actually this incompetent. Life is all about choices and someone has made a lot of wrong choices and after thirty five years of my life, I'm sure that it's not me. I talk in bottomline and what I say might not seem true but if you peal the layers of the political reality of human existence, which I don't suggest you do, it is what you'd find. There are decoys abound to fool you and generalisation in such a scenario would seem foolish but this country and the assholes controlling it are so careless that they don't even bother about covering their tracks. India is the Bihar of the world which, might have been a compliment in Chandragupta Maurya's era but, is definitely not a compliment today. The saddest thing of all is that this is the state of this country despite having a treasure of indigenous spiritual systems and philosophies.